A Dream Come True

I've promised myself a year ago that I'd make this post a more meaningful one. That I'd live this year to the fullest just so I'd have something more substantial to write here.

Today, I'm proud to say that I've achieved that. 

2009 has truly been an amazing year for me. I remember that about a year ago around this time, I was wondering so much about the excitement and hopes Uni life will entail. So far, it hasn't failed me. 

The year begin with a bit of rough edges here and there. People breaking up was really putting a strain on some of our relationships. Then there was that whole drama around April to June. I'm really glad it ended. Of course, there is also my own drama with a certain someone. I'm so sorry to have wasted her time for this long only to realize that I've reached a place where I do not have the capacity to fulfill my responsibilities at that moment. And may I add that she is an incredibly understanding and wonderful woman who will make the next guy the happiest guy on earth. 

And so, after all that drama, cracks were everywhere in my social life. People were falling apart from me. But a group of girls managed to stick all of us back together. A group of girls whom I have come to love with all my heart, and I would go to great lengths to do just about anything for them. Carmen, Caitlin, Yun Shen, Michele, Yee Hooi, Jun Jing. Thank you so much for seeing through all those thick and thin with me. Carmen, thanks for putting up with my sarcasms and insults all the time, Shen, thanks for always being the first person to come talk to me whenever I'm down, or at least, attempted to. Caitlin, thanks for doing all those little things that matter to me so much like when you placed that note on my door.Yee Hooi, although I didn't really get to see you much this year, but you've always wished for my good health each time I fall sick and  you're always asking me how I am whenever you get the chance to see me, it really means a lot that someone cares. And Michele, thanks for listening to me bitch about countless things and also providing me with an overdose of laughter each and everyday. Oh! Let us not forget the wonderful Mr Sniffles! Jiah Lit, you're a really nice person and you and Michele never fail to make me happy each time I see both of you being all lovey-dovey together although I might suggest a room each and everytime.

As for those people who have stuck by me since last year, you know who you are, I'm pretty sure I don't have to go through the whole list of contributions you've made in my life. You should already know how important you are to me. 


The year also paved the way for me to realize my passion, albeit on a minor scale. I participated in the University's dance society Flare Dance Ensemble and was given the honor and opportunity to choreograph a gig routine. The gig routine taught me a lot of things, the importance of working together as a group and the conflicts one may encounter along the way of realizing your dreams.

Towards the end of the year, I got to know more people from Flare and it's safe to say that they are an awesome bunch. I'm really looking forward to working with them next year to produce an even more awesome annual production.


The year comes to an end sooner than I thought it would have. Of course there will always be some little regrets you have here and there but overall I think that this year has been a fruitful year and that I have lived it to the best possible.


You, yes you, the one that's reading my blog now. I hope that we'll still see through all the crap that's bound to come in our way when we begin our second year in Uni. Stay with me. :)

Reasoning

I woke up feeling like I could take on the world today.

Then you had to come crawling back into my life and peel up those scars that have barely healed themselves. Those war wounds. When will the pain stop?

Why wouldn't you just leave me alone? Why must you constantly remind me that at one point in my life, you existed?

I tried every measure possible to shut you out but you clawed your way back in at every chance.

I need you to get out of my life, permanently.

Then I gradually realize..

You're my shadow. I know I need to face you one day. But the only way to destroy you is to embrace the darkness. Shadows can't exist when there is no light. I have to be brave, and not be afraid of the darkness anymore.

When things start falling apart around me, I don't just go running away from the debris anymore. I hold my ground and I try to put them back, even if it means I have to do it piece by piece.

I'm not that same person two years ago anymore. I'm a stronger, much mature person. I have the courage to look up and hold my head high.

You do not dictate what I do, for I have purged you. And I will not allow you to resurface because you have caused far too much harm the last time you were around.

I am still me, two years ago, only so much better.

This Is War

Three more days to my first paper. My final exams are upon me. 

This war will be a tough one, but I shall persevere and emerge victorious!

CHIONG AR!!!