Musings

16 days to go before I leave KL and depart to Melbourne. Truth be told, I really miss Melbourne. It's not just the friends or the freedom I get there, I actually miss the streets, the familiar places I hang out with my friends, the weather, the people. Melbourne has truly warped my sense of belonging. I feel like I belong there than here nowadays.

Mom told me the apartment will be ready by June. I'm crossing my fingers wishing that it'll be ready by May. I really wanna have my own apartment, a place where I can truly do anything I want to it.

I'm also looking forward to this year in Flare. Hopefully I'll be able to make some contribution to the club as well as have some fun while I'm at it.

I wanna save up on money this year to go to many places in Australia. So far I know Gold Coast is in the planning and I would really love to visit other famous parts of the country. Fool around with Kangaroos or maybe hug a Koala Bear or even walk around with little penguins around me.

I'm about to embark on my third year in Melbourne, Australia. I truly hope that this year will turn out to be even better than the last. No more skipping classes for invalid reasons! No more slacking! Time to get serious Eric! Its now or never!

Vision

I'm standing here right at the end of the tunnel, hoping to see the slightest trace of light that I can find. Yet I find myself just standing here with a blanked out mind and a hollowed heart, reaching my hands out to a never-ending darkness.

Have you turned your back on me? Am I left all by myself, once again?

Doubt

I know it is only the beginning of the year but I'm already starting to doubt what I'm doing and the purpose of me doing them. I'm also beginning to lose vision of who I am in this group and I'm beginning to lose faith in myself. Could this be an endless spiral down to a bad ending once again? I hope I won't lose anyone important to me this time, you all mean too much to me.